Emily and Einstein Read online

  FOR THE OLD MAN WITH THE CRAZY CLOTHES WHO APPEARED UNEXPECTEDLY AT MY SIDE SO MANY YEARS AGO. THANK YOU, WHEREVER YOU ARE.…

  Acknowledgments

  Writing this book has been a journey and there are many people I want to thank …

  My parents, Marilyn and Larry Francis.

  My brothers and sister and their families: Rick and Ginger Francis, Brian and Andria Francis, Carilyn and Tim Johnson.

  The best nieces and nephews—Lauren, Tyler, Grant, Spencer, Cameron, and Haley Grace.

  My friends: Gloria Skinner, Jessica Bird, Maxine Bird, Saira Rao, John Resi, Jill Stockwell, John Caputo, Jim Farah, Ken Laughram, Parker Thompson, and August Nazareth.

  As always …

  Amy Berkower and Genevieve Gagne-Hawes, along with Liz Usuriello, Alec Shane, Maja Nikolic, and Jennifer Kelaher.

  Jennifer Weis and the entire St. Martin’s team, including Lisa Senz and Scott Harshbarger.

  Tony Lee, for his amazing son.

  And that son, Michael Lee, who makes it all worthwhile.

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Acknowledgments

  Prologue

  Emily

  Chapter One

  Sandy

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Emily

  Chapter Four

  Einstein

  Chapter Five

  Emily

  Chapter Six

  Einstein

  Chapter Seven

  Emily

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Einstein

  Chapter Ten

  Emily

  Chapter Eleven

  Einstein

  Chapter Twelve

  Emily

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Einstein

  Chapter Sixteen

  Emily

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Einstein

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Emily

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Einstein

  Chapter Twenty-two

  Chapter Twenty-three

  Emily

  Chapter Twenty-four

  Einstein

  Chapter Twenty-five

  Emily

  Chapter Twenty-six

  Chapter Twenty-seven

  Einstein

  Chapter Twenty-eight

  Emily

  Chapter Twenty-nine

  Einstein

  Chapter Thirty

  Emily

  Chapter Thirty-one

  Einstein

  Chapter Thirty-two

  Emily

  Chapter Thirty-three

  Einstein

  Chapter Thirty-four

  Chapter Thirty-five

  Emily

  Chapter Thirty-six

  Einstein

  Chapter Thirty-seven

  Chapter Thirty-eight

  Emily

  Chapter Thirty-nine

  Einstein

  Chapter Forty

  Chapter Forty-one

  Emily

  Chapter Forty-two

  Chapter Forty-three

  Sandy

  Chapter Forty-four

  Emily

  Epilogue

  Also by Linda Francis Lee

  Copyright

  prologue

  A week passed before I understood the enormity of my situation, a week before I realized I was dead.

  It was February, a bitter cold day in New York with a gunmetal sky, the kind of storm blowing in that would make even the most stoic northeasterner dream of sun, sand, and a beach that stretched on forever. Wearing a heavy wool suit, silk tie, and overcoat, I walked into my office on the thirty-fourth floor, the view of lower Manhattan blocked out by the falling snow. My secretary was on the phone, her sharp Brooklyn accent and polyester clothes at odds with the old-world, fine wood surroundings of the reception area. She snapped at the caller, something about having to go through her to get to me—the very reason I employed the no-nonsense older woman who wasn’t afraid of anyone.

  She banged down the phone with a huff. “Pushy, pushy, pushy.”

  I struggled not to smile.

  When she saw me, she didn’t so much as blink. “Mr. Portman, there you are.” She handed over a stack of memos, while giving me a brief, rapid-fire rundown of who had called. “And your mother stopped by earlier, said she needs to see you.”

  My mother, the demanding, if beautiful, Althea Portman, had a tendency to think my sole job should be dealing with her.

  Without a hitch in my step, glancing through the stack as I went, I didn’t bother to look up. “If she stops by again, tell her I quit. Tell her I got fired. Or better yet, tell her I’ve moved to Mongolia or the Australian Outback, someplace far away that with any luck isn’t reachable by phone.”

  “Now, now, that’s just plain mean. She’s your mother.”

  “Mrs. Carmichael, my mother requires mean.” I kept going, mentally itemizing which of the memos required my attention. “In fact, a woman like my mother demands mean.”

  “For a man who can’t be more than, what, thirty-five, forty,” she called after me, “you sure are cantankerous.”

  Just before I shut the door to my office, I glanced back, and this time I did smile. “Cantankerous? Me?”

  She scoffed and turned away, though not before I caught a glimpse of her own amused smile.

  “I’ll need a car to take me uptown at seven,” I told her.

  With that, I tossed the stack of memos in the trash and shut the door.

  *

  An hour later I left my office at the Regal Bay investment firm. I was due to meet my wife at the Upper West Side Animal Clinic where she volunteered every Friday after work.

  The first time I saw Emily I would have sworn she was born and bred in some place like Minneapolis or Milwaukee. It turned out she grew up in Manhattan, raised by a woman I’d had the good fortune never to meet. In her day, Lillian Barlow had been a noted and unfortunately vocal feminist, a woman who had taken a hard stand against what she called That pack of misogynist men whose goal in life was to oppress women.

  One, I think her stance a sweeping generalization, not to mention melodramatic. And two, given her stance, how a woman who had burned bras and been arrested for protesting the Vietnam War raised a daughter as open and trusting as Emily was anyone’s guess. How I ended up marrying the woman’s daughter was an even bigger mystery. But when Emily and I met nearly four years earlier, I was on the backside of a skiing mishap that had left me with a shattered leg that surgeons had reassembled with screws and metal pins.

  This shouldn’t have hit me as hard as it did, but what can I say? For years I had wanted to run the New York City Marathon. I had dreamed of it. In some ways, I had counted on it. After my leg ended up on the wrong end of my unfortunate fall, I was told that my days of training for anything that put significant strain on the leg, much less running the marathon, were over.

  All this to say that in my own moment of spectacularly self-indulgent melodrama, when I met Emily I’d just had my first taste of mortality along with an overlarge serving of hunger to be something more than the man I was.

  Of course Emily didn’t know any of that. The day I met her I was sitting in a conference room of the book publishing house, Caldecote Press, surrounded by the president, publisher, an editor, a lawyer, and Regal Bay’s own consigliere who scared even me—and I didn’t scare easily. We were there about a sticky issue regarding an upcoming book the publisher had on its fall list. Namely, a book
about Regal Bay and some of its allegedly questionable activities. Victor Harken and I were there to make sure the book never saw the light of day. Rather than go the legal route from the onset, Victor wanted first to try and “convince” the publisher to see things our way.

  Just before we began the meeting, Emily blew into the room like she was immortal, her long blond hair flowing behind her like a flag. She was delicate, not very tall, but somehow her presence filled the room. I had been half listening to Victor make small talk, but the minute I saw Emily everything else fell away.

  Good news, bad news, depending on your point of view, I was nothing if not a connoisseur of women, and everything about Emily seemed a contradiction. She was as beautiful as any of the models I dated, her white blond hair long and loose, her eyes like an indigo sea. But combined with that intensity of energy and color, she wore a simple cream dress that hit barely above her knees. Not blue to highlight her eyes, or short to show off her amazing legs—like adding a constant in algebra to offset an equation. Though in math, the point is to solve for X. Emily seemed impossible to solve.

  I was intrigued.

  “Ah, Emily,” the president said. “I was hoping you could join us.”

  Introductions were made and I gathered that while Emily was relatively new to the company she had already developed a reputation for problem solving. That the president thought she could solve anything with Victor Harken made me smile. Though when I think back on it now, I realize that despite the contradiction of her, or maybe because of it, everything in the room shifted the minute she blew through the door.

  When Victor gestured toward me, and said, “This is—” I cut him off. “Sandy Portman,” I offered with a wry smile. “Just another cog in the corporate machine.”

  Victor looked at me as if I had lost my mind, which perhaps I had. In actuality I was Alexander “Sandy” Vandermeer Regal Portman, a direct descendent of both the Vandermeer and Regal families, founders of Regal Bay, one of Wall Street’s oldest and most prestigious investment firms. Whether it was Emily’s counterbalanced elegance, or the easy confidence of someone who felt no need to impress, I’m not sure. All I knew was that for the first time in my life I didn’t want someone to know who I really was.

  We started in on the issue, Victor doing his best to intimidate and threaten, the president looking like he was concerned he’d end up with a horse head in his bed. But the women in the room hardly paid attention to Victor. They eyed me surreptitiously, weighing their possibilities, assessing. At least all the women did except Emily who didn’t seem to notice me at all.

  No question I wasn’t used to disinterest, but it seemed more than that. Watching her, she seemed aware only of whoever was talking, as if she were listening in a way that most people never did.

  When every idea and possibility had been suggested then discarded as not working for one or the other side, the president glanced over at her. “Emily, what do you think?”

  She considered for a second, then turned to Victor like some blue-eyed David doing battle with a Bronx-born Goliath. “I’m not sure I understand what the problem is. No question you have the resources to tie Caldecote up with lawsuit paperwork for months if not longer, but eventually whatever you’re trying to hide is going to come out.” She tsked at Victor like he was a schoolyard bully getting caught playing rough on the playground.

  I doubted Victor had ever been tsked at in his life.

  “So how about a compromise?” she added, then shot him a dazzling smile.

  She was either crazy or fearless. Maybe both. I knew with a fair degree of certainty that while Victor hadn’t put a horse head in anyone’s bed, he was known for his unorthodox means of getting what he wanted. My great-uncle Silas Regal employed him for that very reason. But the consigliere was as caught off guard by the young woman as I was as she made her case with passion and an idealistic conviction that she and her little publisher would win.

  “Either way,” she went on, “the fact is that while you’re tying us up with legal documents, both Regal Bay and Caldecote are going to end up in publishing eNewsletters, financial blogs, even traditional press. Good for us. Bad for you.” She shrugged and grimaced as if she were actually sorry.

  Victor couldn’t seem to speak. I nearly laughed.

  By the time Emily finished laying out her plan, Victor had agreed that not only would we not “waste money pursuing futile legal action” but we would give the lowlife business-journalist-turned-author access to Regal Bay higher-ups, as Emily put it, “to tell their side of the story.”

  Great-uncle Silas was going to have Victor’s head. I would have been amused but just then Emily looked at me, finally, and everything changed. The world slowed as she studied me for what seemed like forever, then she smiled. As crazy as it sounds, sitting there with her smiling at me, I felt as if I could achieve anything. In her eyes I saw the man I had the potential to be reflected back. Broken legs and shattered dreams were forgotten and I had the distinct thought that she could make me whole. The feeling was deep and primal, as unsettling as it was nearly godly.

  I decided then and there that I would have her.

  *

  It is a well-documented fact that most males of the species long to be great. Isn’t that why we admire superheroes when we are boys and moguls when we are men?

  I was no different.

  When I was young I wanted to be a basketball player, but while no one would accuse me of being short, I didn’t have the tall, lean build of a real player. If I was destined to sit on the bench, why bother? A few years later, I decided on rowing. I was smart and strong, and was being groomed by my prep school coach for the important position of stroke. But after a few months of trudging uptown to practice, I decided rowing was more trouble than it was worth.

  Later, during college, I decided to be an artist, someone great like Picasso or Salvador Dali, larger-than-life men with voracious appetites. But this time my mother, a woman known as a great purveyor of all things art, said Portmans sponsored artists; we didn’t become them.

  What most people didn’t know, or perhaps didn’t remember, was that my mother hadn’t always been a wealthy patron of the arts. The truth was, Althea Portman was an enigma to most people who knew her, a puzzle people had tried to piece together for years. But eventually the questions had been forgotten, and I knew my mother intended for it to stay that way. I rarely gave it any thought; the disconnected pieces of her were something I took in stride.

  Though every once in a while our eyes would meet and I could see the question. Do you remember, I knew she wanted to ask.

  But I was no fool. I always turned away, as did she, the question left hanging in the air, unspoken.

  Unfortunately, my mother wasn’t one to hold her tongue on much of anything else, and on that unfortunate snowy February night when I left my office at Regal Bay, the night it all began, she and I had exchanged words. This time about my wife.

  Frustrated in a way that only my mother could make me, I sat in the back of a Mercedes sedan, one of the firm’s hired drivers taking me up Eighth Avenue in the swirling sleet and snow to meet Emily.

  The drive took forever, the five lanes of traffic a sea of cabs, hired sedans, and people in SUVs from New Jersey heading north, the snowy street lined by the remnants of less glamorous Manhattan real estate now being encroached upon by the gleaming glass and steel of the midtown business district. An hour after leaving the firm, we finally arrived at the animal clinic on West Seventy-sixth, the narrow length lined with parked cars. The driver double-parked across the street, behind a utility van.

  When I didn’t immediately get out, he glanced at me over the seat back. “Isn’t this the address you gave me, sir?”

  “Yes, yes. It is.”

  Generally I wasn’t a distracted person, but that night I felt something I didn’t understand. I wrote it off as simple frustration after a long, snowy drive. I realize now that it was more than that, something more complex, less defined, a d
efiant and callous posturing in front of … what, the gods? Whatever the case, I was charging forward, full speed ahead, to my own undoing. And Emily’s.

  I got out of the car and buttoned my overcoat against the elements. Stepping around the front of the Mercedes, I was startled by a little wiry white-furred dog that leapt out and stood as if intentionally blocking my way. I tried to step around him but slipped on a patch of ice.

  Steadying myself on the hood of the car, I shooed the dog away and kept going, snow and sleet coming down harder, the wind blowing, ice hitting my face. When I got to the right front edge of the Mercedes, a car turned onto the street, its headlights bouncing as the tires hit ruts in the freezing slush.

  As the car roared closer, I saw that it was a taxi driven by someone who had lost all concern for the perils of driving in the snow. I took a step back, irritated that the cabbie planned to hurtle through the narrow space between the double-parked cars. Then just before the cab reached the Mercedes it happened. The little white dog reappeared and stepped into the street.